soo i dont know if this a question or not..but my freiend died a lil over 4 months ago..and one point..we were more than "friends"..but we never dated..and i still think about him alot..and ...
I lack the ability to complete simple tasks. I use drugs to kill the pain I feel, and it works. I want to crawl int a hole and disappear from the world. I would be doing it a favor. to say everyone ...
Well I tried weed a couple of times. There was times were I had this feeling that felt soooo good. Like a mood lift. Like my soul was smiling and I felt good. Like a long lasting feel good sigh.
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i don't care if i ever see my grandparents, i don't have a relationship with them and i don't want one. my nephews B-day is today and there haveing a party for him and i don't ...
since chilødhood i have a complex that i m ugly. no one has ever told me that and even ppl say my looks are above average but still i feel ugly and hate it when someone takes my photo during any ...
ppl always say i am pretty, they say that i should worry about anything, that i can easily get any job bc of my looks or whatever.....
but the problem is i am afraid of my own beauty. i know it ...
Help.....i know that i talked to people on here yesterday....but right now i am thinking about doing what i know will end it all....last night i tried to take everyones advice....i called people for ...
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Yesterday, i went to pick up my son from school for a dr. app. and while i was walking up to the door, all of a sudden i got this feeling that i was at the wrong school. So i started to question ...
First of all, no bashing, no one here wants to read your close-minded ignorance, if you do post and bash, i WILL report you....and then....i might just eat you...0_o
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Okay, heres the deal, iv been a self mutilator for about 4 years, i cut, i love it, i love it so much, the scars, the blood, the pain, the realising of everything i hate, closing off the world i dont want to be apart of.....just, everything!
Iv been in theropy since i was 8, i am now 17, iv had problams all my life.....nothing ever works for me.....i just want some help, maybe some one i can talk to when my depression get to bad....i dont know....
HEY YOU SEEM TO BE REALLY ENJOYING YOURSELF SO GO AHEAD......TRY YOUR NECK THE NEXT TIME - THE CAROTID REALLY GUSHES
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Apollo
you sound like my girlfriend, she always did things like that, I don`t realy know why :) she`s 15 :)
K
So, what's your question?? Or, did you just want to tell people you are a self-mutilator and proud of it?? You're in therapy and talking to someone on a regular basis, so what else do you think you need??
rebel_gurl002
Just curious,but if you enjoy something,how is it a problem?
waynebudd
A retired senior high teacher here - had a female student doing the same thing... when things were bad, she'd show up the next day with new scars, claiming it gave her some relief somehow...
locojoey
I hate to here you are having all these problems, try to stick with threopy. I wish you would get into to church that would probably help but if that is not an option for you than just hang in there and remember when you are at the bottom you can only go up! Good luck to you. Stay strong!
B Rad
This is serious. You really need to set goals for yourself. Such as: stop cutting, control temper, talk to someone, make a friend. Then set your sights on these goals. I hope you come through, I really am hoping.
Clown Knows
Sounds very serious. Talk to someone such as your doctor or school social worker about counseling.
kaliluna
First of all, I have engaged in self-harm for 15 years and every day I am working to get better. Second, why the heck did you post this? I don't know if you really want to get better since the way you describe your self-harm is that you "love" it. If you love something, you won't let it go. You will not change until you decide to, no matter how much outside help you get. You say that nothing ever works for you... well what have you tried besides therapy? There are a million and one coping skills out there and I bet you haven't tried every one of them. Getting better is about being willing to try new things to help you. Such as, instead of picking up that razor (or whatever you use) when you want to cut, make yourself get out of the house. Go for a walk. Take a bath. Scream or beat a pillow. Draw on yourself with a red marker. I understand it's easy to look at a list like this and say "those won't work for me" but how you will you know if you never try? But then again, it doesn't really sound like you want to try. That might be your problem. Sorry I'm not terribly sympathetic, it's just that I know how it is and it sounds like you might be stuck in the self-pity stage, which is very hard to listen to. Otherwise, good luck and hopefully you can find it in you to try to get better.
munchkin 28
You are your own person and you know what makes you feel good. Sounds like you're realizing that you could feel even better if you worked out some of your problems. I suggest you contact your local hospital and ask about support groups. Depression makes us feel alone but you'd be surprised how many people are going through the same things you are.
QEM
Life is painful enough. Realize that you do have a purpose, maybe it's that your ideas will influence someone else and that person will influence another person who later influences the world. Wether for bad or good. Also your actions to influence other people. Maybe someone looks up to you and sees that you are self mutilating yourself adn then they deside to follow you down your path. Would you wish that upon anyone else? You also need to try to change for your own good. One day you may cut too deep. Or maybe you just don't care, maybe you don't care about what happens to anyone but yourself. I'm not trying to bash you, I don't know you as a person so I'm talking hypothetically. I'm not sure if you understand yourself, you need to look deep inside yourself and find the truth behind what's going on. Everyone gets depressed, you're not alone. There are suicide hotlines you can call so you can talk to someone when your depression is getting really bad. It's great that you do want to talk to someone about it, but really... maybe if you realize what your actions are doing to other people, since your in therapy your parents know what you do and are probally asking themselves "what did we do wrong?".
W *Jessica* P
Hi!! =)
Maybe you should try "a group" where you can talk about your problem w/others who feel the same way you do & do the same things you do. You didn't mention trying that, if you haven't already, then give it a try if you really want to help yourself. Cutting is no way to live your life.
First baby due June 6, 2009!
Sorry to hear about your troubles. You say you're currently in therapy....if your therapist isn't working, maybe he/she could suggest someone else. I work in a psychologists office and some of our therapists use a technique called EMDR. It seems to help a lot of people who have been coming in. Is your cutting due to a specific event/events in your life? Have these issues been addressed? Do you talk to family/friends about this? I would guess some people may not be understanding however. I wish I could be of more help, but check out EMDR therapy. Like I said, I only work in a psychology office, I'm not trained. Talk to our therapist. Best of luck to you. I wish you well.
mikeymike623
wow i really don't know what to say well it seems like a impulse you have to do this. i think maybe if you find something else that gives you a rush that feeling you get when you hurt. try a sport or activity that you might get hurt in or that is a bit dangerous but be safe you just need a rush
Kerilyn*
I also have done this, for years and years.
There is just something about it that makes you
feel better. But you can stop. Praying has
helped me alot. I still do think about it. It is a
very hard thing to erase from your past.
Good luck to you. Pray for help, it WILL work.
Sarah S
If you like the scars and you like the pain and the blood, then what would be a reason to stop? I am not trying to be funny or smart, but I really don't know. You won't quit something until you have a reason to. I just recently stopped smoking and I couldn't quit until the truth scared the **** out of me. Or maybe you don't care what happens to you, in which case you would have to deal with the reasons/issues why you don't care about yourself. The cutting is an effect and your self hatred would be the cause... does that make sence? I hope so. Good luck!
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